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Aug 11, 2005
This Fire
Approaches faster than the rain.
And we tripped, and we fell, and we knew it, we'd robbed ourselves.
But i'm not tired,
can we make haste?
and you smile and you look at me like I could have been something.
Posted at 11:00 pm by 36everyday
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Aug 3, 2005
...trips over a book, understandably angered, examines book over which he tripped, scorned, greeted by the words "preliminary touching," the world begins to sour completely, the world begins to fade...
Before I Forget, the setlist for the show at the Rivoli on July 29th, or for those of you who are only aquainted with dicom, cardinal, and or air canada shipping documents 07/29/05:
The Woods -->
Edith Please (Parts 1 & 2)
Machete Song*
Ashes
Knifed Under Moonlight
140
Out On The Porch
Arms
Pamphleteer*
Empty Spaces
Three Thing
Some More Than I
A Cautionary Tale
* First Time We Ever Played This
We have another show this saturday at Raxx here in brampton, i am looking forward to playing for sure.
As Brad West pointed out early tonight, these are "yak" times.
Time is going by sooooooo fucking slow at work, it is extremely hot in the warehouse, and i feel like i haven't seen Steph in an eternity. i feel just blah. blah, blah, blah.
yak times indeed,
yak times indeed.
That said, things are looking up. sweetness.
last sunday i heard the name "ricky ro-ro robinson" mentioned like fifty-five times in one sitting,
Kyle
Posted at 10:53 pm by 36everyday
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Jul 26, 2005
I Have Debts No Honest Man Can Pay
We're the same.
There are a great many things which i feel good about in life.
There are also many things that i do not feel good about.
Most numerous are the things which i can't feel about at all.
hazy, out of reach
desire, still.
Because nobody likes trying new things in front of people.
Or at least I don’t like trying new things in front of people.
It makes me feel extremely uncomfortable, and when I ask myself why it is I feel such discomfort I start to see a general discomfort with learning in front of people; no one wants to suffer preliminary fumblings in front of an audience, especially an audience learned.
No one likes to be so blatantly imperfect.
When I come back for you, it wont be like before
When I come back for you it wont.
i dreamed a blood a beautiful crimson
I dreamed myself a boat by which
Devoured in the breadth of solitude
I dig myself a deeper ditch.
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pretty little thing, what's that machete for?
sulking like this wont get you anywhere far.
take it right back to the place that it came from
cry "degredation" until your face feels like rain.
pretty little thing, what's that machete for?
sulking like this wont get you anywhere far.
/////////////////////////t.b.c.p.t.m.
Posted at 01:07 am by 36everyday
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Jul 14, 2005
Sell Out With Me Tonight.
When your faith in life is gone,
come and speak to me.
When your down and all messed up,
seek my sympathy.
When everybody says no, no, no,
well it's your misfortune and none of my own.
They're wrong, wrong, wrong,
it is your misfortune that sweetens my song.
- M.Doughty
I) Preliminary Touching
There was this dave matthews band bootleg i was listening to one time and during "all along the watchtower" --- when dave and carter are holding the long "laaaaate" --- dave's voice just goes completely out, like pretty badly. he yells "fuck that shit!' and the song kicks in perfectly right after.
I felt like i knew what he meant.
II) Stan Wants To Talk To You...About Industrial Espionage
One of the office managers at my new work, which is actually my old work but technically my new work because i quit my shitty nightshift job finally *cough*hurrah*cough* wants to speak to me about...ironically...my old shitty nightshift job.
More specifically the voicepicking system that Matrix Logistics had in Warehouse 4OXA.
I will tell them nothing but the truth: it made me feel like a robot.
I promise anybody reading this that I will make a point of using the word robot at least 7 times when this happens.
III) The Bad Call
- We're playing June 29th at the Rivoli in Toronto, with G-13, it should be a good, good time.
- Finished sequencing a definitive record of our older (and a few newer) songs, roughly an hour long , 18 tracks...watch out.
- We're working on alot of new stuff right now and it feels important, so this home recording shit has come to a halt
- I like it
IV) Other Stuff
Am looking forward to the weekend...my cousin Lisa is getting married, that should be cool. and then on sunday i'm going to check out Steph's art show downtown, which i am extremely excited about...her shit is crazy good, and it's outside i believe, so walking outside on a summer sunday in Toronto and checking out my lady's work, which never ceases to surprise and impress me, sounds just about as perfect as it gets.
the only thing that would make it more perfect? tetris. somehow...someway.
two more days of work this week.
one more weekend as a twenty year old.
i think i may enjoy it sober. maybe not. but i think so.
" i wont always want what i'll never have ",
kyyyyle.
Posted at 12:09 am by 36everyday
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Jun 29, 2005
Enslaved To The Words I Lack
The new Mike Doughty album - "Haughty Melodic" - is absolutely incredible, it's been a long time since I have heard a set of songs so finally crafted and melodically poignant, not to mention the lyrical skill the man never ceases to amaze me with. If Anyone is reading this - and I know no one is - go out and get it (buy it or download it) as soon as possible.
As i am growing older i am bored, and i remember when misery thrilled me much more. Lately i want the day to end as soon as it begins, which leads me to ask myself what it is that i am actually living for. I'm not going to hang myself or something, it's just troubling me lately...sometimes, i feel like nothing is as it should be, or what i really think it is...Life is supposed to be fun, i think. I'm supposed to just 'go with it', i think. But i don't want to. Still, I never address any problems really, i just keep going, putting on band-aids and not sleeping well.
"Arms" and "140" have been recorded sanz vocals....sounding pretty cool. Hopefully what is steadfastly becoming an almost new album from us should be done within two weeks or so. We want to actually send this one out to record companies and the what not...as well as maybe press it. Which is daring for a home recording, but i think it's us in our essence. maybe.
Brad and I are tossing around the idea of recording an acoustic quiet version of a song that has been hanging around since May called "I Devised A Plan" which is a pure love song if ever I have written one.
Lately it makes me sad to sing it, or really happy, I don't even know anymore. All our lyrics seem to end up ironic, or at least to me.
And still as well the quest continues to find a suitable title for what we're putting together. But I don't know what it is this whole thing is about...i guess that shouldn't matter, but i'd like to pick something appropriate. "get desperate, get it unintended" maybe.
I'd like it to look something like this, but bands are relationships and who knows what will happen:
We Put Angels In The Ground/Arms/140/Ashes/The Woods/Edith Please Pt. 1/Ill Civilian/Edith Please Pt. 2/ I Devised A Plan
Push me, pull me,
Kyle.
Three Days Till Edgefest.
Posted at 08:52 pm by 36everyday
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Jun 27, 2005
Escape Is At Hand For The Travelling Man
"it was our third time in new york it was your fourth time in new york, we were fifth and sixth on the bill.
we talk a little about our bands, talk a little of our future plans it's not like we were best friends...and i chuckled... that number scheme comes back to me in times beyond our heartbeat.
we hung around til the final band called "escape is at hand for the travvelin' man" you yelled in my ear "this music speaks to me" they launched into "lonely from rock n' roll" followed by "they checked out an hour ago" closing with "all desires turn concrete".
those melodies come back to me at times beyond our heartbeat.
i guess i'm too slow,
yes i'm too slow
but you said anytime of the day was fine you said anytime of the night was also fine.
i walked through your revolving door got not an answer,
on the second floor elevator gave a low moan the pigeons sagged the wire with their weight,
listening to the singing chambermaid she sang "they checked out an hour ago".
those melodies come back to me in times beyond our heartbeat.
i guess i'm too slow, yes i'm too slow,
yes i'm too slow but you said anytime of the day was fine
you said anytime of the night was also fine
our heartbeat, our heartbeat, our hearbeat
long conversation idle chit-chat maybe dive in or maybe hang back
idle conversation or idle chit-chat maybe dive in or maybe hang back "
- Gordon Downie
sometimes i hear music that makes my stomach turn because i can't believe that someone i don't even know and has nothing to do with me is capable of creating something that touches me so deeply. this is one of those songs.
maybe tommorow i will wake up normal,
kyle.
Posted at 03:18 am by 36everyday
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Jun 24, 2005
You Watched It Happen. Don't Act Like You Didn't Watch That Happen.
I.) Preface
From the Top to the bottom.
From the bottom to the top.
the moon is wicked, i mean that, wicked
stop sleeping.
no, you're wicked.
stop, stop it.
i mean that... wicked.
II.) "You Did Not Just Do That"
So we decided to ditch all that we recorded the last two weeks, which while admittedly was not much - drum tracks for all songs but 'edith' and an instrumentally complete 'arms - feels like starting all over again, which will be good in the end I think. I'm just eager to play, we haven't actually jammed in a while, last 'rehearsal' was all troubleshooting drum mic's and what not...still, i do not despair, soon enough we will have our shit in order and be rocking proper. We should be doing a website soon, becuase believe it or not we've amassed alot of recorded material in our three short years and truthfully i'd just like to put it up on the internet so anyone with the slightest interest could hear. mostly rough demo's and shit, but still.
III.) Tonight My Life Got 10x Better
My brother's friend Hustler's girlfriend broke up with him so now i get to go to EDGEFEST W/ COHEED & ALEXISONFIRE...i feel really bad for feeling this good...but i love both of these bands...and it's a floor ticket! there is only 1000 for this show!...i can't help it, it's awesome.
IV.) Academia In The Distance
I got my courses for next year figured out tonight, i have to register at 9am, that's not too far off from now. should try and sleep or something. hopefully i get in to the one's i've selected, i'm really excited about them.
Appendix I) Tales From 6491 Derry Road
"Kyle you need to start getting those numbers up, after this week we need hire's to be in the 90's, right now you're the only one still straggling at about 75% so see what you can do to get those numbers up and let me know if you have any issues"
followed by:
- inevitable feelings of fear, lowered self-worth, and maybe even a little bit of guilt
- inevitable feeling of rage at having ever even felt such emotions over something to do with this shitty fucking stupid job.
- inevitably having to work harder for fear of losing this stupid shitty fucking job,
a half an hour come to pass
"You're Looking Up Kyle"
- my life has meaning again, everything is ok.
- thanks man.
- thanks man.
- thanks man.
- thanks man.
...i mean that you know.... wicked.
Goodnight,
Kyle.
Posted at 04:08 am by 36everyday
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Jun 16, 2005
"I Haven't Seen You In A Year, Pat"
4:42am, Thursday June 16 2005... I shall miss this thing when it all rolls by.
See i should be at work right now but i called and was told that my services were not needed tonight, this after i had already slept most of the day. Anyways, what better thing to do at nearly 5am when you can't sleep than write some random shit on the internet.
I had a good night tonight, ended up going to TJ' Chicago's with a bunch of friends and seeing this really good cover band (seriously! a good cover band!). We were heckling them at first because they played Happy Birthday 3 times in a row (the first being a twelve bar blues type, the second reggae, and the third country...but still, no one needs to hear happy birthday three times in a row right?). After that though they started playing the police and shit and their drummer was like actually Stuart Copeland, just tearing shit up, he actually had one of the nicest sounding ride cymbals i have heard in a long time. Just sickness.
I Smoke too much, and though the chest pains have subsided that really doesen't comfort me. To me it always seems like when pain goes away its not that the triumph of health over ailment has taken place so much as my body has struck a deal with pain: "alright i give up, just gimmie like 10-12 months before i let you fuck me over completely, please". there's really probably no scientific basis for that sort of thinking, but the point is i need to stop smoking.
Speaking of something other than smoking i just wanted to put down the setlist from our show last Friday at Raxx in Brampton for safekeeping, thanks to all the heart lake and non-heart lake people who came out and had a good time with us:
I Smell Liquor
Arms
Knifed...
A Cautonary Tale
Rich Girl*
The Woods
Three Things
No Nothing
Permanent Vacation
Ashes
Empty Spaces
In TBC News We have begun recording an independently produced recording at the Bad Cave (aka our jamspot in my basement). It should consist of about 7 songs, all of which we have put together since we've returned from Academia: Arms, Ashes, Ill Civilian, Edith Please Pt. 1, Edith Please Pt. 2, and We Put Angels In The Ground. It's coming along well, if slowly, but only because we are trying to get the best takes possible i suppose, although i'm sure it will sound lo-fi in the end result, that doesen't nesscesarily mean bad. In fact we're trying to make it quite good, we've got some suprises up our sleeves...you'll see. Drum tracks have been recorded for the first three of the aformentioned songs.
Before i go no to sleep i thought i would make a short list of songs that have been destroying me the last little while, check them out if at all interested.
01. Trouble With You - Dave Matthews Band
("...god is a monkey's dream...")
03. With This Song I Will Destroy Myself - Moneen
(..."because i said that you must do what is right, and i know you must do what's best for you...")
04. Question! - System Of A Down
(..."ghosts are no different than you"...)
07. 80 Windows - Nada Surf
(..."the moon is closer to the sun than i am to anyone"...)
11. Escape Is At Hand For The Travelling Man - The Tragically Hip
15. The Last Place You Look - The Get Up Kids
(...."I'll be home in December. The leaves don't fall from the trees as long as you remember you are always with me"...)
Adios,
Kyle.
Posted at 05:29 am by 36everyday
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Jun 6, 2005
Chest Pain Festival Day 4
Today we Take a fun and exciting look at Brampton, Ontario's first annual Chest Pain Festival (or CPF) as experienced by one lucky chest painee. The day's events include
- working (with chest pain)
- playing rock music (with chest pain)
- smoking (with chest pain)
- going to sleep (with chest pain)
- waking up (with chest pain)
- brooding by yourself in the woods (with chest pain)
- cleaning your basement (with chest pain)
- driving around looking for your little brother because he ran away from home like a little bitch (with chest pain)
angina is one of a select group of words that sounds funner than it feels.
yesterday's post was a little dry (not that this is any wetter) for which i apologize. i got like 10 hours of sleep last weekend and it was rough, i was in zombie mode upon its writing*
friday before our show i realized that i hadn't informed my friend Alex who lives in Toronto that we were playing down there and so i tried to send him a quick e-mail short notice in hopes that maybe he'd get in time and not have plans...i just got a reply from him and i thought maybe we'd share it together:
hey Kyle,
sorry I couldn't make it to your show on the weekend. I was out of town. However, its my birthday this weekend. I'm planning on going to the nxne music festival and I'm also having a bbq on saturday, followed by going out to nxne. You should come down, in fact, you must. And bring Nick if you don't hate him.
talk to you later,
Alex
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From: "kyle Dawe" <kyle_dawe@hotmail.com>
To: alex_hamilton99@hotmail.com
Subject: SHORT NOTICE, MOFO
Date: Fri, 03 Jun 2005 17:40:00 -0400
Hey dude i know this is short notice but i just wanted to let you know that we are playinga show tonight in TO, the smiling buddha bar, 961 college st. (college and dovercourt), we play at midnight, so there's plenty-o-time, you should come check it out! piece. yes, that kind of piece.
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sweeeeet, looks like somebody might have plans this weekend! isn't it great that we could share this together? yes it is i know.
lates,
KD.
*this is 'night of the living' dead zombie mode, not to be confused with 'the cranberries no need to argue' zombie mode.
Posted at 08:45 pm by 36everyday
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Jun 5, 2005
Hello. Friday night we played a show the Smiling Buddha Bar, 961 College St. in downtown Toronto. It was good times, I was happy with the way we played by and large and people seemed to dig it. the setlist ran something like this (not that any of these song titles mean anything to anyone really, here's hoping someday they will).
Ashes
Locks
Empty Spaces
Parkette
The Woods
Edith, Please
Ill Civilian
Arms
Ten
Out On The Porch
No Nothing
Justice League
Rich Girl *
Knifed Under Moonlight
A Cautionary Tale
Three Things
I Smell Liquor
Redestroy Youâ
*Is A Gwen Stefani Song.
I hate my job. I work the night shift at a gigantic shopper's drugmart warehouse and i talk to a computer for 8 hours a night, i need money though, but it actually makes me miserable, or maybe i am just overly tired today. Last night I went to the Dance Cave in the T dot with my lady and her friends, it was goooood times, really good music which was refreshing in such a setting. and just now i got my friend Erik to burn me a copy of The Stryder's "Masquerade of the Key Of Crime" which i lost many moons ago...it is so so so good;
all very fascinating i'm sure, ta-ta.
Kyle
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